It all started when I was 8. My parents were constantly fighting, as the oldest I felt I needed to carry the weight of the divorce for my siblings. After a while everything got better and going from one house to another became normal. When middle-school occurred I fell into a pit of depression. I didn’t want to burden anyone. I felt alone in my battle. Like there was no one to turn to. This path led to a dependency on other things. For example, I would self harm to try and deal with my emotions. I didn’t have the best friends and this led to some drinking and not the best decisions.
When I started high school I was still making these decisions. After my freshman year I transferred to a public school. Little did I know, God was finding a way to change me for the better. I had rekindled a friendship with Lainey; she brought me to YoungLife. YoungLife brought me out of this deep pit of sorrow I seemed to call home. I made like minded friends in faith, I cut out all drinking, and I made better friends to surround myself with.
I was able to take what I learned from YoungLife and truly understand the message Crossroads had been telling me all along. God was showing me the way, and it was clearer now more than ever.